So, I hope all my gal friends had a wonderful Mother's Day! I certainly did!
After a long week of Lynnie working at Pioneer and then going to help one of the farmers finish planting his crop till 10 or 11 at night we decided to sleep in on Sunday morning...I know, I know, we are Sinners!!!! We also had to clean the house and get ready to have the Hartley/Anderson/Roy/Bodenstab family over for a barbecue...So, while I cleaned inside Lynnie and T did the outside stuff....they ran to get chairs and tables and mowed the lawn...then after one trip to "Papa's" T came running in with a bag in his hand and gave it to me and said "Happy Mudder's Day"!!! There was a card with Tanner's signature and two signs for our house (I am in the process of decorating) and a coffee mug (yes, it was hot pink) and some mini Milky Ways (those are sooo naughty)...I was shocked, usually Heather has to remind Lynnie to get something for me during the holidays and she usually does the shopping for it...but this year he did it on his own and surprised me...it was fantastic...
We had a wonderful barbecue with the fam and we were reminded that, yes, you might want to put sunscreen on when in our backyard...
We rested in the afternoon and then in the evening we had a fire in our fire pit and made some s'mores and had a great time with Adriane and Conrad...
After tucking T into bed I kissed him Goodnight and then I hear..."I love you, Happy Mudder's Day"....I had to walk out cause I was going to start crying!! It was so awesome and definitely better than any earthly gift!!!
I now can experience what my mom went through with me. Even though T drives me soooo CRAZY 94% of the time and I would love a spa day once a week, it's those little things he says or does that makes you feel like a mom..like it is all worth it...and helps you to look at this mouthy monster with a touch of Tourettes as a child again, as your baby!!
When you are a child you always assume your mom is going to be there. You never think that you are going to get a call one day having her tell you that she has Breast Cancer and that she has to go through Chemo. If it does happen then you have all these thoughts floating around in your mind and you feel like you could just crumble at any moment. In our family that word Cancer is associated with dying...at least in my mind. My Grandma died of Pancreatic Cancer, My aunt died of Melanoma at age 36 and now my mom has Breast Cancer....and I know what you are thinking...they have come so far in learning about and treating Breast Cancer but to me Cancer may be cured for a time but it always, always comes back a second time....full force...
So, after having in the back of my mind for the past 28 years that my mom will always be there I was finally forced to admit that someday she won't be around. Now, when you are 28 and you still feel like you are 16 that thought tends to make you hyperventilate....to actually think of someone that close to you dying and not being there is..well, weird...Even though my mother has the 100% Assurance of Eternal Life with her Creator it is still a crazy thought...Death is so final....for us down here...it is actually an end here and a beginning there....I think it is the not-knowing what the there is like that tends to freak you out...or it might actually be the thought that I will one day have to host Christmas or Thanksgiving at my house and be the adult and be in charge...I am not ready to grow up yet...I always look at my life and it is kind of a dream to me..when did I get my own house...when did I get my driver's license....how come that mom won't come and pick up her kids..I have been babysitting for 5 years straight now....and this guy who is always trying to hug me and talk to me....who is he?? Where did he come from???
Then there is the positive....my mom is here...they have made lots of great advances in treating Breast Cancer and she is most likely going to be fine for the next 20+ years...and she can talk and drive and walk and cook and clean and I can pick up the phone and call her anytime and I get to see her in two weeks and she is still my same mom....maybe minus some hair in a few weeks but she is still the same lady I have known for the past 28 years....
And with all these thoughts that I am sharing with everyone (and probably going to look back and say ohhhh maybe I shouldn't have been so vulnerable), I have learned something great...you don't know what each day is going to bring...you have to live for today....don't worry about tomorrow..today has its own problems...don't spend the day yelling at your kids..or angry at your spouse...or worried about when you are going to lose all that weight...just live...enjoy the sunshine, your family, the green grass, your freedom to write your heart out in a blog, be thankful that you can walk, talk, run, blink, see the blossoms on the trees, smell the spring air...be yourself..don't worry about what other people think of you....just be!!!!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
I KNOW the Facts, man....
*I just wrote the following to a friend..if only I could listen to my own advice and put it into action...*
If I could eat when I was actually hungry and stop when I was satisfied then it would be fabulous..I would be skinny and everything. When I am bored or have stress or something I totally emotionally eat. And the more I think that I am going to do better then it is like I am obsessing about my eating and my weight. The more I want to do better and not snack or eat too much the harder it is and I feel like such a failure. Even when I am aware that I am emotional or bored eating I don't care...I can't put it down. I know about all the diets, all the advice from thin people, all the strategies, healthy foods, what to do, what to take, when to eat, when not to...and it still doesn't make sense to me. I always get motivated until the next meal. If I eat until I am satisfied then I totally FREAK OUT cause there is still a mound of food on my plate that is going to be wasted. Or if I am not hungry and it is dinner time then I FREAK OUT again because I skipped a meal. I need help just as much as you or the next person. We can totally help each other out. The thing we can remember is that there will always be food...You WILL get hungry again. And that next time your stomach growls you can eat again...until you are satisfied...and if you screw up at one meal..then work on starting over at the next meal....making good choices and having success requires having some failures along the way...just pick up and start over again....don't obsess about what happened a couple of weeks ago, just make the decision to start over right now. If you think you are hungry then drink a glass of water and wait a few min. If you really are hungry and your body really does need fuel then your stomach will growl....if not then the water should have cured you cause you were probably thirsty or bored or stressed. Food should be fuel...don't live to eat...eat to live!!!! Food is how we survive..it shouldn't be how we are comforted......
If I could eat when I was actually hungry and stop when I was satisfied then it would be fabulous..I would be skinny and everything. When I am bored or have stress or something I totally emotionally eat. And the more I think that I am going to do better then it is like I am obsessing about my eating and my weight. The more I want to do better and not snack or eat too much the harder it is and I feel like such a failure. Even when I am aware that I am emotional or bored eating I don't care...I can't put it down. I know about all the diets, all the advice from thin people, all the strategies, healthy foods, what to do, what to take, when to eat, when not to...and it still doesn't make sense to me. I always get motivated until the next meal. If I eat until I am satisfied then I totally FREAK OUT cause there is still a mound of food on my plate that is going to be wasted. Or if I am not hungry and it is dinner time then I FREAK OUT again because I skipped a meal. I need help just as much as you or the next person. We can totally help each other out. The thing we can remember is that there will always be food...You WILL get hungry again. And that next time your stomach growls you can eat again...until you are satisfied...and if you screw up at one meal..then work on starting over at the next meal....making good choices and having success requires having some failures along the way...just pick up and start over again....don't obsess about what happened a couple of weeks ago, just make the decision to start over right now. If you think you are hungry then drink a glass of water and wait a few min. If you really are hungry and your body really does need fuel then your stomach will growl....if not then the water should have cured you cause you were probably thirsty or bored or stressed. Food should be fuel...don't live to eat...eat to live!!!! Food is how we survive..it shouldn't be how we are comforted......
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Headaches
So, I have Insulin Resistance...Pre-Diabetes, some call it....
What is insulin resistance?
Insulin resistance is a condition in which the body produces insulin but does not use it properly. Insulin, a hormone made by the pancreas, helps the body use glucose for energy. Glucose is a form of sugar that is the body’s main source of energy.
The body’s digestive system breaks food down into glucose, which then travels in the bloodstream to cells throughout the body. Glucose in the blood is called blood glucose, also known as blood sugar. As the blood glucose level rises after a meal, the pancreas releases insulin to help cells take in and use the glucose.
When people are insulin resistant, their muscle, fat, and liver cells do not respond properly to insulin. As a result, their bodies need more insulin to help glucose enter cells. The pancreas tries to keep up with this increased demand for insulin by producing more. Eventually, the pancreas fails to keep up with the body’s need for insulin. Excess glucose builds up in the bloodstream, setting the stage for diabetes. Many people with insulin resistance have high levels of both glucose and insulin circulating in their blood at the same time.
Insulin resistance increases the chance of developing type 2 diabetes and heart disease. Learning about insulin resistance is the first step toward making lifestyle changes that can help prevent diabetes and other health problems. (this was taken from a site I Googled)
So, lately after I eat I get these headaches...after looking on the Internet at other peoples questions on this I have come to the conclusion that it is because of my blood sugar....You would think after a few months of this I would learn not to eat huge portions and less carbs..but no, I am still eating what I am acustomed to...and not losing any weight...So, if I could just eat smaller portions when I am hungry and stop when I am satisfied and be more conseince of what I am eating I would be like a SUPER MODEL!!!! I am exercising a lot more but the eating is what is going to help me the most. Heather and I exercised one summer for 6 weeks straight and I didn't lose any weight...of course, I felt better but no weight loss...now, a couple weeks after that I drank lots of water and ate really healthy for a week and I dropped 5 pounds..Seriously...
So, in my mind are all these peoples' advice...Scott Angelsey said once that if you think about how long of a lifetime you have and you only take out six months of your life to eat the right way and exercise it isn't that much...Larrisa Udy told me that on her mission she made a deal with a girl that if the girl stopped smoking Larrisa would give up sugar and she lost a lot of weight...and other people and books go through my head daily...However, when I start to think "Oh, I'm not hungry" or "Oh, I can go without a snack." then I FREAK OUT..if I am not hungry and it is Noon then I freak out that I didn't have lunch, so then I have to make lunch and eat it and then I feel horrible cause I am so stuffed....same thing with working at Lucky's..I am not hungry when I get to work or before I leave for work...but if it is slow then I start thinking about how a Steak Fajita Pita with Ranch would be so great or a Mushroom Swiss Burger with Round Fries...and then I have the cook make it for me....and then of course I get depressed when I weigh myself the next morning...
SO, I am asking all my friends and family to please lift up a prayer for me to have some self-control with my eating.....keep me accountable (even though I will be totally annoyed at times with somone pointing out my eating habits)....I will even keep updates and try to keep a food journal..I think if I could see how much I eat and the times I am eating (stressed out, etc.) then it will help me to drop some poundage!!! I am going to cut out soda too...just water...which will be hard and work on cutting out unhealthy bread and other empty carbs and sugar.....sooooo here we go folks...I need all the support I can get!!!!
What is insulin resistance?
Insulin resistance is a condition in which the body produces insulin but does not use it properly. Insulin, a hormone made by the pancreas, helps the body use glucose for energy. Glucose is a form of sugar that is the body’s main source of energy.
The body’s digestive system breaks food down into glucose, which then travels in the bloodstream to cells throughout the body. Glucose in the blood is called blood glucose, also known as blood sugar. As the blood glucose level rises after a meal, the pancreas releases insulin to help cells take in and use the glucose.
When people are insulin resistant, their muscle, fat, and liver cells do not respond properly to insulin. As a result, their bodies need more insulin to help glucose enter cells. The pancreas tries to keep up with this increased demand for insulin by producing more. Eventually, the pancreas fails to keep up with the body’s need for insulin. Excess glucose builds up in the bloodstream, setting the stage for diabetes. Many people with insulin resistance have high levels of both glucose and insulin circulating in their blood at the same time.
Insulin resistance increases the chance of developing type 2 diabetes and heart disease. Learning about insulin resistance is the first step toward making lifestyle changes that can help prevent diabetes and other health problems. (this was taken from a site I Googled)
So, lately after I eat I get these headaches...after looking on the Internet at other peoples questions on this I have come to the conclusion that it is because of my blood sugar....You would think after a few months of this I would learn not to eat huge portions and less carbs..but no, I am still eating what I am acustomed to...and not losing any weight...So, if I could just eat smaller portions when I am hungry and stop when I am satisfied and be more conseince of what I am eating I would be like a SUPER MODEL!!!! I am exercising a lot more but the eating is what is going to help me the most. Heather and I exercised one summer for 6 weeks straight and I didn't lose any weight...of course, I felt better but no weight loss...now, a couple weeks after that I drank lots of water and ate really healthy for a week and I dropped 5 pounds..Seriously...
So, in my mind are all these peoples' advice...Scott Angelsey said once that if you think about how long of a lifetime you have and you only take out six months of your life to eat the right way and exercise it isn't that much...Larrisa Udy told me that on her mission she made a deal with a girl that if the girl stopped smoking Larrisa would give up sugar and she lost a lot of weight...and other people and books go through my head daily...However, when I start to think "Oh, I'm not hungry" or "Oh, I can go without a snack." then I FREAK OUT..if I am not hungry and it is Noon then I freak out that I didn't have lunch, so then I have to make lunch and eat it and then I feel horrible cause I am so stuffed....same thing with working at Lucky's..I am not hungry when I get to work or before I leave for work...but if it is slow then I start thinking about how a Steak Fajita Pita with Ranch would be so great or a Mushroom Swiss Burger with Round Fries...and then I have the cook make it for me....and then of course I get depressed when I weigh myself the next morning...
SO, I am asking all my friends and family to please lift up a prayer for me to have some self-control with my eating.....keep me accountable (even though I will be totally annoyed at times with somone pointing out my eating habits)....I will even keep updates and try to keep a food journal..I think if I could see how much I eat and the times I am eating (stressed out, etc.) then it will help me to drop some poundage!!! I am going to cut out soda too...just water...which will be hard and work on cutting out unhealthy bread and other empty carbs and sugar.....sooooo here we go folks...I need all the support I can get!!!!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Workin' Out, Baby!
So, here I sit at my computer with a cup of Java (with Hazelnut creamer, I might add) and it is only 7:59 a.m....Y es, ladies and gents, I got up at 6:15 to meet Adriane at the baseball field by 6:30 and head out on the bike path towards the Marina....we walked a little, jogged a little, talked a lot...It was super fantastic. I even had time to shower and put Lukey down for a little snooze so I could blog. (T is of course watching Dora or Diego...don't they make ANY shows that teach the kids French?).
This evening I will register my son for Kindergarten....seriously...where the heck did the time go? I remember that first week we had him and he was in the hospital still (born a month early..long story) and I was waiting for Lynnie to come home from work so we could go up to Pocatello to visit him for the day. Some of it is kind of a blur, good thing I have the video camera, but I have great memories of him...and now we start another chapter in his life. No, No, I didn't cry when he started Pre-School. I didn't cry when he rode his bike without training wheels. Nor did I cry when he had stitches from a fall at the baby-sitters.....but there is something about walking into the elementary school and registering your baby for kindergarten....I got all sorts of emotional...and tonight we will get to meet the teachers and sit through a talk on how to get him ready for the "transistion"......I don't think it is the fact that he is starting school and leaving me for three hours a day...no, I gladly welcome that break. I think it is the fact that my mother has always told me that when they start school the time just flies...and I haven't mastered the living for today thing...the mommy part where you just can sit there and enjoy them and hold them and live for the moment. So, this summer we are headed to the park everyday...to the Library every Friday and we are going to spend that quality time as a family...kind of a celebration before time starts to slip away....and I want to continue it even when they are older. I love the Sunday dinner thing....every Sunday when it is an unspoken event..you just show up at Mom's house and the whole family is there. After church, sit down to a great comforting meal, great conversation, family, friends..and then everyone heads to the livingroom to read the paper, crochet, read, talk, play the piano, nap....it is such a wonderful time. I remember those times we would go to Grandma's house for dinner on Sunday...the whole family would be there and it would be such an awesome meal....my mouth is watering...and great family time. I spent a summer in France and it was almost a mandatory thing that even though you had lunch with the family everyday, Sundays were the day that you met and ate with extended family and friends...everyone was invited for a huge meal and games and great fellowship....It was awesome...a time to relax but also a time to catch up...I just love this concept...So, this is another one of my goals...
Goal List:
1.) Run a 5k
2.) Spend more time as a family
So, everyone, turn off the t.v., clear off your diningroom tables, fix something great to eat and spend time with your little families...then after dinner instead of turning the tube back on play a game, read together, or go outside and play catch....time is precious...James 4:14 says "...You don't even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes."
Have a great day!!!
This evening I will register my son for Kindergarten....seriously...where the heck did the time go? I remember that first week we had him and he was in the hospital still (born a month early..long story) and I was waiting for Lynnie to come home from work so we could go up to Pocatello to visit him for the day. Some of it is kind of a blur, good thing I have the video camera, but I have great memories of him...and now we start another chapter in his life. No, No, I didn't cry when he started Pre-School. I didn't cry when he rode his bike without training wheels. Nor did I cry when he had stitches from a fall at the baby-sitters.....but there is something about walking into the elementary school and registering your baby for kindergarten....I got all sorts of emotional...and tonight we will get to meet the teachers and sit through a talk on how to get him ready for the "transistion"......I don't think it is the fact that he is starting school and leaving me for three hours a day...no, I gladly welcome that break. I think it is the fact that my mother has always told me that when they start school the time just flies...and I haven't mastered the living for today thing...the mommy part where you just can sit there and enjoy them and hold them and live for the moment. So, this summer we are headed to the park everyday...to the Library every Friday and we are going to spend that quality time as a family...kind of a celebration before time starts to slip away....and I want to continue it even when they are older. I love the Sunday dinner thing....every Sunday when it is an unspoken event..you just show up at Mom's house and the whole family is there. After church, sit down to a great comforting meal, great conversation, family, friends..and then everyone heads to the livingroom to read the paper, crochet, read, talk, play the piano, nap....it is such a wonderful time. I remember those times we would go to Grandma's house for dinner on Sunday...the whole family would be there and it would be such an awesome meal....my mouth is watering...and great family time. I spent a summer in France and it was almost a mandatory thing that even though you had lunch with the family everyday, Sundays were the day that you met and ate with extended family and friends...everyone was invited for a huge meal and games and great fellowship....It was awesome...a time to relax but also a time to catch up...I just love this concept...So, this is another one of my goals...
Goal List:
1.) Run a 5k
2.) Spend more time as a family
So, everyone, turn off the t.v., clear off your diningroom tables, fix something great to eat and spend time with your little families...then after dinner instead of turning the tube back on play a game, read together, or go outside and play catch....time is precious...James 4:14 says "...You don't even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes."
Have a great day!!!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Whoa!!!
So after I decided to spend half the day reading all the blogs I could find I got up and finished doing some laundry and sent the big one (T) outside to play. A little while later he came in and said that he was just going to take a rest and watch t.v.. When I think back on it I should have seen it coming...what mother wouldn't question her 4 year old boy coming in and SWEETLY saying he was going to do something...Not even 5 min later the neighbor boy and girl wandered into my house (don't people teach their kids to knock anymore) and proceeded to tattle on my sweet oldest son. Here's how it went:
little boy: "Sarah, I, I, I, just came, came, came over to tell you that T-t-tanner was calling us naughty words and said he hates us...."
me (rolling my eyes): "so, [little boy], did you come over to my house just to tattle"
little boy: "well no...I-I-I just thought you would want to know...
me: "So what did you say to him to set him off so he would say naughty things"
Tanner (in the living room listening):"He told me to get out of here and leave and he yelled at me"
me:"is that true [little boy]??
little boy: "well no, but he said it in front of my mom and she said '*gasp*'...
me: "ok...thanks [little boy] you can go home now...."
5 more min. later...I receive a text from my lovely neighbor mom...."I just thought you would like to know that I sent T home because he was calling us naughty names."
my text back went a little like this...."Thanks...it will just be another naughty thing that you can point out to everyone about my son...."
her text back...."I'm sure I can"
my text back...."You are great at it....starting from my daily updates on my son at the park all summer all the way to the birthday party where you decided to tell everyone about the mud incident and then proceeded to make fun of the presents I gave the birthday boy and girl..." then, "your kids aren't perfect by any means..."
*gasp*
Where did all this hostility come from..
Sadly, I am not going to blame this on hormones...no, no...I will blame it on the fact that the above mentioned neighborhood mom has A.) made it a horrible experience for my oldest one to be in school...leading to us pulling him out of pre-school B.) has an ongoing list that she shares with everyone she meets about the naughty things my son does C.) has successfully pushed a group of mom's away so she could obsessively hang out with a mom who is moving in December anyway and be named BFF of the year....D.) not to mention the things her son has taught my son....E.) and went to someone in our family trying to start a rumor that Lynnie lost his job and we got a bunch of money from my parents that we were living off of and that my mom had came to visit around Thanksgiving and bought all of the Christmas gifts that we were giving to other people.......WHO DOES THAT???? and F.) anytime in we are in public with other people ONLY has a negative comment about my son and my family and me.......she never criticizes anyone else...just me.....
So....after the tattle text yesterday I FLIPPED OUT...NO longer will I let my family be trampled on by ignorant people with low self-esteem......for the first time in a long time I stood up for myself and my family and let the words fly...instead of venting to someone else and feeling like I have to hide and ignore this person....heck no...bring it on..I am going to say what is on my mind to the persons face....
I know it is a small town and everyone knows everyone else and I am sure I will pay dearly for this....(above neighbor mom will some how become the victim and turn it around so people dislike me...she is manipulative like that)....but I don't care anymore....If people are going to listen to what she has to say and not question it then they don't deserve to be my friend. Anyone who knows me well enough should be smart enough to question what she will put out there.....
Honestly, I surprised myself....immediatly when I do something like that I feel like saying.."oh, I am soo sorry, I didn't mean it....please don't be offended.." Not this time...I didn't regret a thing...not to mention my husband was surprised I didn't flip out sooner...note to self...when Lynnie says he doesn't like someone and that there is something wrong with that picture...listen to him.....I don't take back anything I said..It was mere truth and it had to be said.
Now a warning to other mom's.....watch out, ladies....some people seem sweet on the outside but on the inside there is jealousy and hate and maliciousness and lies....and it will try to wreak havoc on your family life....
So, I am stepping down after my vent session on my soapbox....thank you for reading....I feel so much better.....Thank you to those people who are my true friends...through thick and thin...fat and skinny...I hope that God completely blesses your marriages, and families, and friendships!!!
Have a great day!!!
little boy: "Sarah, I, I, I, just came, came, came over to tell you that T-t-tanner was calling us naughty words and said he hates us...."
me (rolling my eyes): "so, [little boy], did you come over to my house just to tattle"
little boy: "well no...I-I-I just thought you would want to know...
me: "So what did you say to him to set him off so he would say naughty things"
Tanner (in the living room listening):"He told me to get out of here and leave and he yelled at me"
me:"is that true [little boy]??
little boy: "well no, but he said it in front of my mom and she said '*gasp*'...
me: "ok...thanks [little boy] you can go home now...."
5 more min. later...I receive a text from my lovely neighbor mom...."I just thought you would like to know that I sent T home because he was calling us naughty names."
my text back went a little like this...."Thanks...it will just be another naughty thing that you can point out to everyone about my son...."
her text back...."I'm sure I can"
my text back...."You are great at it....starting from my daily updates on my son at the park all summer all the way to the birthday party where you decided to tell everyone about the mud incident and then proceeded to make fun of the presents I gave the birthday boy and girl..." then, "your kids aren't perfect by any means..."
*gasp*
Where did all this hostility come from..
Sadly, I am not going to blame this on hormones...no, no...I will blame it on the fact that the above mentioned neighborhood mom has A.) made it a horrible experience for my oldest one to be in school...leading to us pulling him out of pre-school B.) has an ongoing list that she shares with everyone she meets about the naughty things my son does C.) has successfully pushed a group of mom's away so she could obsessively hang out with a mom who is moving in December anyway and be named BFF of the year....D.) not to mention the things her son has taught my son....E.) and went to someone in our family trying to start a rumor that Lynnie lost his job and we got a bunch of money from my parents that we were living off of and that my mom had came to visit around Thanksgiving and bought all of the Christmas gifts that we were giving to other people.......WHO DOES THAT???? and F.) anytime in we are in public with other people ONLY has a negative comment about my son and my family and me.......she never criticizes anyone else...just me.....
So....after the tattle text yesterday I FLIPPED OUT...NO longer will I let my family be trampled on by ignorant people with low self-esteem......for the first time in a long time I stood up for myself and my family and let the words fly...instead of venting to someone else and feeling like I have to hide and ignore this person....heck no...bring it on..I am going to say what is on my mind to the persons face....
I know it is a small town and everyone knows everyone else and I am sure I will pay dearly for this....(above neighbor mom will some how become the victim and turn it around so people dislike me...she is manipulative like that)....but I don't care anymore....If people are going to listen to what she has to say and not question it then they don't deserve to be my friend. Anyone who knows me well enough should be smart enough to question what she will put out there.....
Honestly, I surprised myself....immediatly when I do something like that I feel like saying.."oh, I am soo sorry, I didn't mean it....please don't be offended.." Not this time...I didn't regret a thing...not to mention my husband was surprised I didn't flip out sooner...note to self...when Lynnie says he doesn't like someone and that there is something wrong with that picture...listen to him.....I don't take back anything I said..It was mere truth and it had to be said.
Now a warning to other mom's.....watch out, ladies....some people seem sweet on the outside but on the inside there is jealousy and hate and maliciousness and lies....and it will try to wreak havoc on your family life....
So, I am stepping down after my vent session on my soapbox....thank you for reading....I feel so much better.....Thank you to those people who are my true friends...through thick and thin...fat and skinny...I hope that God completely blesses your marriages, and families, and friendships!!!
Have a great day!!!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Our lil fam!
So.....our family history.....Lynnie and I were in the same class in school (AFHS class of 1999) and we started hanging out the night of our classes graduation. We ended up hanging out all summer and then in July I decided I was going to move to California...once there I found out how much I missed my man and decided to, once again, move back to A.F. We got engaged June 24th 2000 and were married November 11, 2000. I can't believe June 11 of this year (2009) we will be together for 10 years. Time flies and I know that Lynnie is the perfect guy for me. God never makes mistakes and He had a plan when he got us together. I love you, Lynnie!
June 2004 we had our first boy! Tanner James was born a month early and has made up for it. I think he is the tallest 4 (almost 5) year old in our town...he looks like his Uncle Mike and has his mom's personality...so pretty much he is a very active 4 year old....
Our new addition is Lucas Jeffrey. Born Nov 2008, he is the quiet one. Looks exactly like his older brother and is extremely quiet and content to just sit there and look at everyone..(like Lynnie)....
Starting Over Again....
So, today is Monday...again! Thankfully I have the whole day off. I don't have to work at all. Right now T is watching cartoons and L is sleeping peacefully in the boys' room.
After a super duper time at a birthday party for one of T's friends this weekend I decided that I am going to just stay home this weekend and not answer the phone and just work on house stuff. I have been trying to decorate our house (since it will be 2 years in July that we have lived here) and I finally invested in the paint for our dining room wall....it is called Paprika and it is a wonderful color. So after two years of trying to get Lynnie to pull down the horrible looking china cabinet on the wall, he FINALLY did it yesterday (Sunday) and we painted and now it adds so much character to our little home. It is coming together and I just have a sense of peace with that....
It is funny how when you accomplish one thing on your To Do List then you feel like you can go and accomplish anything...so back to the jogging and 5K plans.
In Jan. I decided that after years of starting and stopping I was going to start jogging and do a 5K race in Sept. I did really well for a couple of months on the treadmill and then the big day came for me to go outside and try out my progress on the track....uh, yeah....after being able to jog continually for 20 + min on the treadmill I went outside and ran one lap...ONE LAP.....and I was about to die...then I walked a lap and ran another lap and then decided I better start my training all over again....at a later date. So here I am a little over a month since that happened and I have just been walking with a friend a couple of days a week.
So, after the above noted birthday bash on Sat. and talking to a couple of gals about running and definetly doing a race, I decided I was going to start slowly back into it. I am planning on going this evening and just doing my best through the neighborhood....without kids......maybe some friends will come with.
Instead of having the "skinny" outlook I decided I would change it to the "healthy" outlook. I can exercise and exercise and not lose any weight but as soon as I eat healthy and smaller portions I can drop some poundage...however...I hate eating healthy. But I feel horrible after eating lots of sugar and carbs....I get a huge headache and I am sluggish and tired and feel awful....*you'd think I would learn from this after the first 50 times of it happening*....so I decided to blog about my progress....then everyone can read about it and keep me accountable and it will encourage me to get healthy and fit...mentally, spiritually, and physically.....
So, here we go again........
After a super duper time at a birthday party for one of T's friends this weekend I decided that I am going to just stay home this weekend and not answer the phone and just work on house stuff. I have been trying to decorate our house (since it will be 2 years in July that we have lived here) and I finally invested in the paint for our dining room wall....it is called Paprika and it is a wonderful color. So after two years of trying to get Lynnie to pull down the horrible looking china cabinet on the wall, he FINALLY did it yesterday (Sunday) and we painted and now it adds so much character to our little home. It is coming together and I just have a sense of peace with that....
It is funny how when you accomplish one thing on your To Do List then you feel like you can go and accomplish anything...so back to the jogging and 5K plans.
In Jan. I decided that after years of starting and stopping I was going to start jogging and do a 5K race in Sept. I did really well for a couple of months on the treadmill and then the big day came for me to go outside and try out my progress on the track....uh, yeah....after being able to jog continually for 20 + min on the treadmill I went outside and ran one lap...ONE LAP.....and I was about to die...then I walked a lap and ran another lap and then decided I better start my training all over again....at a later date. So here I am a little over a month since that happened and I have just been walking with a friend a couple of days a week.
So, after the above noted birthday bash on Sat. and talking to a couple of gals about running and definetly doing a race, I decided I was going to start slowly back into it. I am planning on going this evening and just doing my best through the neighborhood....without kids......maybe some friends will come with.
Instead of having the "skinny" outlook I decided I would change it to the "healthy" outlook. I can exercise and exercise and not lose any weight but as soon as I eat healthy and smaller portions I can drop some poundage...however...I hate eating healthy. But I feel horrible after eating lots of sugar and carbs....I get a huge headache and I am sluggish and tired and feel awful....*you'd think I would learn from this after the first 50 times of it happening*....so I decided to blog about my progress....then everyone can read about it and keep me accountable and it will encourage me to get healthy and fit...mentally, spiritually, and physically.....
So, here we go again........
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